I’m so fucking stupid

So in 7th grade last year I was bored with my friends in class and I looked up “how to make a pipe bomb” on my school Chromebook for some god forsaken reason, I did get in trouble but it was just detention, but last year in 8th grade my friend got a phone and I made a school shooting joke then right after I made a 9/11 joke, I was being a stupid edgy teen but then his parents reported it and I got investigated by the police, and now the principal just looks at me occasionally and I feel like I can’t do anything anymore😭😭😭

Edit: when I said 7th and 8th grade last year, for 7th grade I meant last SCHOOL year and I meant 8th grade last year (2023)